Right! After telling you guys how I was feeling on Friday I realized a few things. First of all that there is no reason to be ashamed of the fact that you sometimes struggle. Everyone struggles from time to time. Even the people we look up to the most. The only problem is that we never share that we struggle with anyone else. We sit there in our dark rooms and think that we're the only ones in the whole wide world that have this problem.
So I've decided to share with you, what happens when I struggle. I am pretty sure that I'm not the only one in the world that does this. Also, this is hard for me to share with the world as it IS something I am ashamed of, but I think it needs to be done. It is even giving me a bit of anxiety to show you this. But it is also giving me an insight in to my own destructive side. So here goes....
This would be the first thing you would see walking in to my office.... Not a great sight for anyone that is already feeling miserable is it?
Fur scraps and fur everywhere, all over the floor... This is not what I would leave it like on a normal day. And this is what slowly wears me down even worse...
Piles of rubbish and an over flowing bin :(
The refusal of letting anyone in... Not even the sun....
Random fur scraps at random places???
Time to sort things out. Not by my own realization but through my other half telling me that at least letting the daylight in might help me feeling less disheartened and that a clean work space might lift my spirit too. I look around and all of a sudden I realize what I have done to myself. Why it is so hard to get work done and why every day for the past week has felt like a drag. Isn't it amazing how we let our feelings rule over everything we do, and that instead of sorting ourselves out we just dig a deeper hole and disappear in to it. Am I the only one doing this to myself or is there others out there that do this too? I would love to know. And what do you do to snap out of it?
Here's what I did!
First things first. Without great music I just cant work magic.... So some of my favorite music on really loud (my neighbors are on holiday so no harm done) and off we go!
I brought the horrible hoover, that I hate so much, out and I let it demolish the floor in my office and devour all the fur...
You can always rely on the Flash! He will sort any muck out!
Open up and let there be light! Daylight in any form, whether it is raining or sunshine, is so important for your own well being. Especially now that the days grow shorter and the nights longer. Let the light and the rest of the world in to show that you're proud of what you're doing and don't need to hide in your dark misery den.
Look at that floor! It is like someone fitted a new carpet!
Clean desks. There is nothing I love more than a clean desk. So much space to be creative in. So many opportunities open up all of a sudden and all the lost inspiration slowly comes back to you.
No random fur scraps covering ongoing work and hiding what needs to be finished. You can bread again, you have taken your creative space back from corruption and you're ready to be the free spirit you've always been.
And look at that! It only took an hour to sort out a week of destruction. Not bad, not bad at all.
I also tend to forget to eat right when I feel down and miserable. So after cleaning my sins away I try to lift my spirit even more, with a good meal to get my strength back.
And don't forget to treat yourself after a job well done... Nom nom nom... mmmm apple cake...mmmmm
...and whilst treating yourself, relax, watch an episode of your favorite series or listen to some good music. I like to watch the Dog Whisperer for example :)
And NOW I am ready to get back to work, and feel good about it. All the mess is gone and I am ready to dig in to some of the most booooooring bits of my job....
....packaging.... Soooo boring, but still something that needs to be done. And with the spirit I am in now, nothing can stop me or wear me down. I am up, out of that deep hole. I have filled it in and I am building a palace on top of it. The hole is gone and I am on top of the world again!
Now what do you do to fight your demons?! I would love to know! xxx
